Skin Deep

Invisible lonely girl
just wants to be beautiful
wants people to care
so she started with her hair.
so she chop, chop, chopped it
ya, she dye, dye, dyed it.
her beautiful long hair.
that was only the beginning.

she didnt get that beauty goes more than skin deep.
ya, more than skin deep.

she thought she did it all
but the change was really small
as soon as she realized
cuts holes to show her thighs.
she cut, cut, cut it
and she low, low, lowered it.
show her cleavage and her legs.
you're getting closer.

cuz she didn't get that beauty is more than skin deep.
ya, more than skin deep.

the changes became bigger
a little beyond control.
eyes, ears, piercings
teeth, mouth, nose.
she'd do anything.
she's do everything.

she looked in the mirror.
she couldnt see herself.
no, she couldn't fiind herself.
she smiles.
"that's ok.
cuz beauty is only skin deep.
ya, beauty is only skin deep."

Topsy Turvy

Why must we live in a world
where the way to forget pain
is by watching blood spill?

Why must we live in a world
where the way to escape suffering
is to sit at a bar and indulge? 

Why must we live in a world
Where beauty is defined by
skin, color, hair and clothes?

Why is love in this world
is created by the touch of hands,
lust, and pleasure?

What's going on with the world?
What's happening now in our world?
Where is our world?

This world is topsy turvy.

Sweet, Innocent, Naive

I'm sick of these verbs chained to me.
Parasites wherever I go, no clean slate
To start on.

Not really sure what it is.
The hair, the face, the way I speak.
The mask I wear is not worn, but drilled onto my face
"Cover her deformity. The world must never see."

They are not blind. They see clearly, but with the wrong eyes.
They see not what's really there,
But what they want to see.

And what they see is me.
Sweet, Innocent, Naive.

Pictures on my Wall

The smiles and eyes
Are frozen in place
The poses posed
Forever
Eyes blue, brown, green
Staring out
Forever


These pictures on my wall
Will haunt me for forever
Never to let me
Forget the past


Memories will flow
In my mind
Forever
Hugs, kisses, laughs
Will echo on
Forever
Sparkling stars and thunderstorms
Imprinted in me
Forever


These pictures on my wall
Will haunt me for forever
Never to let me
Forget of the past


Why can't life be
Like these pictures
On my wall?
Frozen in place
Poses posed
Forever?

Still Here

I'm still breathing
I'm existing
As the days move by
Realizing
I'm still wanting
To accept your lie

CH
I'm still standing, wanting to sit
I'm still trying, wanting to quit
I'm still holding, wanting to release
I'm still here, I'm still here

I don't want to care anymore
I'm not living, I'm not living anymore
Freely I gave
Freely you threw away

CH
I'm still standing, wanting to sit
I'm still trying, wanting to quit
I'm still holding, wanting to release
I'm still here, I'm still here

Can you see me?
I'm still here

Soar

V
Drowning
In this sea of chaos
Trying to swim above the crowds
Trying to reach up for the clouds

V2
Blinded
Its so hard to see
Nobody hears me when I cry
Just trying to get up to the sky

CH
Escape the rush
Escape the sound
Break the chains
That hold me down
To be free
To just be me
Not what they
All expect me to be
Wanna soar

V3
Marked
The subtley tear at your soul
There must be a better dream out there
There's gotta be someone who will dare

CH
Escape the rush
Escape the sound
Break the chains
That hold me down
To be free
To just be me
Not what they
All expect me to be
Wanna soar

B
While others keep
Their feet to the ground
I won't be afraid to defy
To fly

CH
Escape the rush
Escape the sound
Break the chains
That hold me down
To be free
To just be me
Not what they
All expect me to be
Gonna soar

Stay

V
So hard
Don't understand
Trying to make it
But I dont think I can
I can't conquer this fight
I need Your light

Ch
Wrap your loving arms around me
Stay near
I need you to guide me
No one else can comfort me
Like you
When I'm afraid
You calm my fears
Whenever I'm sad
You dry my tears
So please stay here with me

V2
So scared
So low
Can't decide
Dont know where to go
Dont know where to turn
When will I learn?

Ch
Wrap your loving arms around me
Stay near
I need you to guide me
No one else can comfort me
Like you
When I'm afraid
You calm my fears
Whenever I'm sad
You dry my tears
So please stay here with me

B
Have patience with me
Im still growing
Im still learning
Learning to say
Without a doubt
"Thy will be done"
So please just

Ch
Wrap your loving arms around me
Stay near
I need you to guide me
No one else can comfort me
Like you
When I'm afraid
You calm my fears
Whenever I'm sad
You dry my tears
So please stay here with me